Cried

Miserable day come towards me.
What's wrong?
If I'm sharing my feelings here, is that mean I'm showing off? O.O
I can't even share my real feelings in this blog since my blog is not in private stage.
Okay...




I'm poor...
My pocket money has been spent for purchasing stock of my job...
By earning the RM 440 which will be pay on next month, I'm totally forgone my time, my assignment, my own pocket money, my rest and my skin care.
I sold wrong product on the first day...
I'm nervous...
No one can help me out.
I couldn't sleep at that night.
I'm suffering with fever, flu and cough on Valentine's day because of rain.
By walking alone in the rain, I want to cry.
But I'm still forcing myself not to cry.
Hui Min, don't because of little things then cry please...

I'm angry!

I'm angry on myself why do I trust friends easily?
I'm angry on myself why I couldn't complete my tasks?

Second, I'm remorse!

I'm remorse because of my foolish trust and affected Lun Yee's group do not perform their tasks.
Sorry Lun Yee, Zhi Jing, Pei Ying, Mee Xian and Ai Ling...
Because of my ford makes you all let sir scold...
But I'm also not be convinced...
If people don't want to compare with each other I think the life will be more easier.
And I will be more freedom too.
Please do not pick me as competitor and I really do not like people who always want to compare with me!
Please!!!
Especially you and you !
What for you want me follow your way?
I'm not your dog! = =

Along the travel, rain is dropping...
I hate rain when I was taking my own travel alone!
Even my bas also treat me badly!
I couldn't catches up my T408 bus even though I'm trying hard to run...
The bus will only come after 1 or 2 hours!
Is the time for me to cry...
but I was emphasis myself not to do so.
Hui Min, stop it!


Back to home and standing in front of the mirror...
What's wrong with my face?
Is this me?
My face almost disfigurement!!!
Can the pimples stop pop out!!!
Can my health be maintain back!!!
What's wrong with my tummy!!!
What's wrong with my scars!!!
Even pour medicine also not used!

While just sitting on the floor,
preparing those questions which need to be interviewed tomorrow...
my phone start ringing!!!
My aunty asked me to write leave letter for my cousin.
I was willing to help but I don't have the mood!
I try my best to think but my mind is blank...
I recognize I had written before but I was deleted it!
Stupid!!!
Try to check my perdrive whether still keeping it or not...
Unfortunately found out unopen files in my pendrive!
My importance documents all gone!
Say goodbye to Changmin photos and my past assignments...
The pendrive affected the computer keep restarted!
I thought it was my brother ford since he borrow my pendrive to save game!
I scold him badly and quarrel with him!
The last I was indulge myself...
I cry like hell...

Should I or shouldn't I blame for it?
The stress I cannot reduce injure me badly...
Don't want to compare me please...
I want to take off my mask with smiling face...
It looks artificially in front of the mirror...
Dumb!!!
I'm tired,
I really tired...